I dislike the word “resolution” as it carries such a negative connotation. And it almost always seems to refer to ideals that are unattainable. I prefer the word “goal.” I am a very goal-oriented person. I am continually making goals for myself. I am sort of an accomplishment junkie if you will. I strive to accomplish and get what I need to get done. Striving to finish my task is the motivation I need to get it done. I love being able to check things off the list. I confess that sometimes I even write things on my to-do list that I already did just so I can cross it off the list. Yep, it’s true. Tell me I am not alone. That being said, I am headed into the new year with many new goals. Things that I strive to work towards with the understanding that if I fall short or have some back sliding that is perfectly ok and to be expected. I give myself permission to mess up. I don’t want to be too hard on myself as I hope to pick myself back up and keep working towards those goals.
Here are some goals I have for the year 2014 in no particular order:
Be healthy and Get Fit
Two years ago, I lost 45 pounds after switching my diet to eating low-carb and working out vigiorously 4 times a week for an hour each time. I was in great shape then. I felt great and looked better than I ever had. I was strong. I could do a ton of burpees and I enjoyed them. In the last year and a half, I lost it. I slacked off from the exercise classes I was taking and began to be “too busy” to go. I was overwhelmed in other areas of my life and thus my health suffered. I became lax in my eating and slowly began to put back on the weight. Now, I mourn the loss of who I was. I felt good about myself and was healthy. I want to get back to healthy. I am intimidated by the enormity of the task ahead of me and still lack all the motivation needed to get there. I thought if I joined the gym, it would jump start me. I think it has to a degree. I have been there a few times and so far, so good. I am changing my eating and that will be a process. I need to cut back on carbohydrates…and take a vacation from breads, potatoes, and pasta. Not a NO CARB approach, but a LOW carb approach. That is what works for me. I have done it before so I know that I can. The time is now and I am boarding the train.
True confession time: I spend a great deal of time in my painting clothes, sweatpants, and/or jammies. I suppose it is a function of being a stay-at-home Mom and working the Blessed Nest while being at home which makes sense, but honestly I could use to be a little more spiffed up. I think this goal could go along with the first…it is really a function of a desire to feel better about me. I can paint pretty furniture, but I walk around with black paint under my nails and primer permanently adhered to my elbows. It’s just how I am. I can clean up, but truthfully I am no fashion plate. I can sometimes pull and outfit together, but I am not good at it. I am just not. I want to look nicer and more often. I want to have times when I am in sweats, but also more times that I am not. Maybe this is all just part of turning 40 in the fall and I am now in mid-life crisis mode. Maybe since I don’t desire the red sportscar, I suppose it will be ok. Whatever it is, it is an area that I wish to make changes in during the upcoming year.
Develop My Blog
I love to blog. I enjoy sharing projects with my readers and other creative endeavors. I hope this year it continues to grow and blossom. This year, I hope to bring you more than just creations, but more about me and my life and my journey. Perhaps a little about who I am, my struggles and my experiences. Just a bit more. It is what makes me ME. I figure this is my blog. My party. Hopefully you like it, but if not, I won’t be offended if you don’t read it. Blogging is a hobby. It is something I enjoy. If I ever find it to be a chore and I stop enjoying it, then it is NOT what it is supposed to be. I try to blog daily, but honestly my family comes first. If I have a late night sometimes I just don’t blog that night. I am not hostage to my blog. I love it, but I am not enslaved to it. It is something just like everything else in life to balance. It is time-consuming and I have to dole out my time to many things and most importantly my family. If I don’t post one night, it is probably because I was busy with my husband out on a late night date night (enjoying every second) or taking my kids out for ice cream or I am just tired and chose to doze off on the couch. I love it and want it to be enjoyable and not a chore. I do hope to continue to bring lots of furniture makeovers as well as more about me. I hope to have more opportunities to present tutorials on how to do what I am doing with regard to painting – anyone can do what I do. It’s true. I will teach you. I also hope to be able to answer my email more often…trust me when I say I read all my mail, but I am not good about answering all of it. It is an area that I need to get better at this year – that is my goal.
Embrace Where I Am At…Right Here, Right Now
I recently became a stay-at-home Mom after living the last 10 years as a working Mother. It has been a year of great adjustment and great change. It has also been a year of great blessing. Initially, being home was a welcomed thing as I missed being home with my family and never had the chance to do so, but it also felt negative in that I felt I wasn’t being a contributing member of the family. Financially, the burden had fallen to Chris and I felt unhelpful in this regard. I have come to adjust to being home after a year, but it has been a challenge. This year, I want to give myself permission to embrace where I am. I want to allow myself to be where I am at…and be OK with that. I contribute a great deal by being home. I am able to keep my home clean, put dinner on the table for my family, support my husband in his role as pastor, volunteer at our church, be in the lives of my girls, help out in their school, blog more often, see my extended family, work at home in the Nest, paint and do what I love to do, and just be a more present and active part of my family. I am blessed to be here and regardless of how I got here, I am here. And I am thankful for that. I am going to embrace it wholeheartedly this year.
Love My Family
I want to be there for them. I hope to make this a year of continuing to build relationship with my husband of 12 years and with my girls. I hope to encourage them in their persuits as well as their struggles. I want to show them my unconditional love and devotion to them. They are my everything. I hope to continue to grow in my marriage. I am blessed with my husband. I want to also work on being a better Mom – being more present than ever, more intentional in being a presence in their lives and to continue to teach them about Jesus and nurturing their relationship with Him. What greater legacy could I leave to them?
I just moved to a new town this past fall. I hope to work towards growing roots here. I would like to work on building relationships with new people particularly within our new church community. My husband is a pastor and we just began ministering at a new church this year. As you can imagine, there is much to do! I hope to settle in here and create a new life for my family. We are now able to see our extended family often which is a blessing, too. I desire to dig into ministry and have a burning desire to invest in women’s ministries. This is a new journey for me and I pray the lord would use me to be fruitful for Him and to be used for His purposes. Simply said – I want to bloom where He has planted me.
Within making such a big change as a move, there comes the need for closure to a chapter in my life. I have the need to put closure of where I have been and permission to start a new chapter of my life in a new place, in a new role and with new goals for myself. The old has gone. This year, I will relish all my positive memories of the past and allow closure to occur. I want to move on to a new life with new opportunites. I am blessed to be able to do so. I will forgive and forget when necessary and move into a new year. I am ready.
Build My Nest
I aspire to continue to build into the little business I began two years ago. The Blessed Nest allows me the opportunity to recreate unloved pieces of furniture and to help transform them into something beautiful. I enjoy this as both a creative outlet and as a means to help provide for my family. I thank the Lord for giving me the gifts and talents I have and I pray this year to continue to use them for His glory. The Nest is not just a business enterprise, but a ministry. I hope to paint furniture AND build relationships with others. I hope this continues to grow into something awesome and so far, we certainly are on the right track.
Lastly, I pray this year will be a time to continue to learn to lean on and to trust God. He is faithful and strong and nothing is bigger than He is. Nothing I face or fear I hold is beyond Him. I want this year to be a year I trust him with all the things I will have to face. I pray it is a year to grow my faith stronger than ever. I want to lean on Him not just in times of need and desperation, but in everyday life and tasks. I also strive to trust His will for my life…even if it doesn’t make sense to me at all. Entrusting Him with all that I love is hard, but it is what I want to do. We also continue to wait on the Lord for our home back in Northeast PA to sell. We moved here in August and we are still waiting for some resolution and closure upon the sale of our home. I will also trust Him in this process as well as hard as it is. I know that He has a plan and can put it all in place. Trust involves surrendering all to Jesus and that is the journey I just happen to be on. I will carry on.
I think that is enough to keep me busy for the year.
Do you have any goals you aspire to this year?